The shoulder I cried on when everything got too stressful.

Who broke my heart you did. Because of your absence I am so acutely aware of those that are present. I never would have imagined that you would be one of the most important people in my life for two yearsand at the time I dodged every one of your advances every attempt to hang out every subtle mention that you liked me. Its so hard to let go sometimes even if its ultimately for the best.

Today I live in the knowledge that nothing and nobody could ever hurt me the way that you did. I didnt know and I still dont know what captivated me first. Its so hard to let go sometimes even if its ultimately for the best.

It started out toxic and it still ended toxic. An open letter to the first boy who broke my heart. But I ignored the red flags because you were my first love and I wanted every moment I could get with you.

My heart overflows with gratitude for the people who have stayed. Kelsey in my heart i dont think we will win tonight either However this team of ours is full of surprises so you never know Evo and George Hello to you both its lovely to see you. 2 and a half years ago I saw you for the first time.

Then I found out you were married the entire 2 years MM Confessions. We did everything and anything possible together. You broke me in ways I never would have imagined you would have years ago.

Then my eyes met yours. A letter to the man who broke my heart. I really did love you.