Currently listening to: Change - Taylor Swift

I had the most wicked dream ever. Not sure what it means…but when I woke up, I had to write it down…in case I forgot.

I was wearing a tank top and I fell asleep.  I was awoken by a pulsating feeling on my chest.  When I peered down, I saw a super-colossal looking arachnoid hugging the frontal portion of my body.  The hairy bristle-like legs were wrapping around me…tightly.  It was closing in on me.  The many evil eyes were staring into my eyes.  I thought to myself, “If looks could kill”.  My heart rate suddenly became rapid, I was going into tachycardia, and felt as though my heart was going to burst out of my chest cavity.  My palms were perspiring.  I closed my eyes and waited in dread…

And then I woke up.  It was so Alien-esque.  For once, I was happy that my alarm woke me up.

What does it mean?

Currently listening to: Call My Name - OMD

Before I begin, I tag y’all.

1.  The last thing I do before going to sleep is: pass out while playing BubbleXplode on my iPod or fall asleep while Big Bang is telling me a bedtime story.

2.  When I can’t sleep I: get online to see who is on IM, clean, or watch television.

3.  The first thing I do when I wake up is: hit the snooze button on my alarm.

4.  When I’m tired: I drink coffee, chew gum, or call people if I’m driving.

5.  My dream bedroom would be: designed by Candice Olson because I heart her.

6.  If I could wake up anywhere tomorrow morning, it would be: with Big Bang next to me in Tahiti, in a private bungalow over the water, with breakfast waiting for us.

7.  The longest sleep I’ve ever had was: 22 hours but I had bronchitis.

8.  I sleep: with my stomach down and face on the side.

9.  When I sleep, I like to wear: tank top and pajama pants.

10.  My bedtime is usually: when I feel tired or Big Bang threatens to kick my ass.

Currently listening to: Bora Bora - Arash Labaf

1.  I drank a shit load of coffee.  My coworkers told me, “You’re back.”  Yeah.  I’m back with a vengeance.  I had a small cup from Seattle’s Best, then a large cup at work, and after work I needed a grande soy no foam latte extra hot (this is dinner).  Seems like the soy milk helps with push my bowel movements out.  TMI but I don’t care, I haven’t had one in two days and I usually have anywhere between 2-3 on the daily.

2.  I saw 46 patients today.

3.  I only had one student following me around.  She smelled a bit musty. It felt kinda weird only one person around me since I’m used to a posse trailing behind me.

4.  Interviewed a possible candidate for a per diem position.

5.  My coworker told me about how much another colleague sucked.  Yep.  For sure. Then I let my boss know, cause she needed to know.  F bombs were dropped left and right.  This is it…

6.  Dr. McNasty-Ass doesn’t know she’s canned.  It’ll be interesting when she tries to come into work.

7.  Made my Persian coworker translate Bora Bora for me.

8.  My StarCraft II still hasn’t come.  In fact the order was canceled.  *le sigh*  I die…

9.  I skipped out on Zumba.  I’ll go tomorrow morning.

10.  I STILL haven’t called Verizon.  BTW, iPhone4 or DroidX?  Please discuss.

My mom bought me a slow cooker.  Now I gotta find recipes for a crock pot.

Waiting for SC II…*rubs hands together*  Excellent Smithers…excellent.

Making a list of potential things to do if Big Bang comes.  Also writing things to remember not to bring up or do while with my mother, like going to the Motherland.

Didn’t realize but for about 20 minutes of my day, I was walking around with my fly open.  That’s not cute.

I almost died today.  I was told that she is no longer employed with us anymore.  A coworker did a pirouette in my office because she was so damn happy.  I almost had tears of joy coming down my face.

Currently listening to: Rock Your Body - Justin Timberlake

I had to drink three cups of coffee to stay awake today.  Why?  Because I was up until 0200 watching Law & Order: Criminal Intent back-to-back-to-back whilst playing on my iPod.

My coworker threatened to take away my iPod because I looked as if the blood had been drained from my body.

Had a Full Bar this morning.  I wasn’t hungry for four hours after eating it.  Nice.

Big Bang is trying to recondition me to sleep at 2100.  HAHAHA…

Told my mom that Big Bang might be visiting.  She said she would like to meet him.  It’ll end up being like the Spanish Inquisition…I can see it now.

Oh and Dr. Drizay, I didn’t mean to delete your comments.  When I updated the “To Do List” entry, it deleted all the comments.

Currently listening to: Change - Taylor Swift

I had a fairly productive weekend.  I accomplished most of the things on my “To Do List”.

Instead of finding a dress/shoes for my brother’s wedding, I bought a bunch of stuff at Nordstrom Rack: 7 sleeveless tops, a scarf, and a headband.  They were having a wicked sale.  Bought it all for $125.94.

Aveda:
Acne Relief Pads.  $31.50
Shammy Cloth.  $9.48
I had a double point certificate that needed to be redeemed.
Total balance:13240 points.  Tier five.

Costco:
Full Bar (eat it a half hour before meal time with 8 oz of water and magically you eat less because you’re full).  15 bars for $15.99
Wensleydale w/blueberries, two wedges.  $9.11 + $8.82

GNC:
Max Protein - chocolate.  $34.99 (get 1/2 off with the purchase of the papaya enzyme).
Papaya Enzyme.  $14.99

Starbucks:
Grande soy no foam latte.  $3.95 - $0.50 (no charge for soy due to registered Starbucks card).

Target:
Doritos - Salsa Verde + Late Night All Nighter Cheeseburger.  The Cheeseburger flavored chips are my latest obsession.  It’s like eating mini sirloins.  I know, it sounds disgusting but it’s different.  I had a hard time finding this particular flavor.  I grabbed the last bag.  They didn’t have my second favorite, Last Call Jalapeno Popper.  Salsa Verde is my third favorite.  Doritos, I heart you.  $3 per bag, regularly $3.99 per bag.
13 pocket coupon file + zip pouch.  Need to keep all my fucking coupons and reward/loyalty cards organized. $4.27

Threading:
I went in for the full face threading.  Tired of the baby hairs and figured it would be better for the face anyway.  $35 + $7 tip.  She did a great job.

Walmart:
Fuze - 1 Strawberry Melon x 2, Cranberry Raspberry, pomegranate acai berry x 2.  $1 each bottle + $0.05 CRV fee. And yes, I do collect bottles and get my money back at the recycling center.

All of this food should last me about two weeks.

It was a rough day today.  It required a venti soy no foam latte in the morning, regular roast coffee in the afternoon, and a grande soy no foam latte in the evening.  Completely wiped out.  Annoyed too.

I’m hired to do a consulting gig.  It’s something different.  Whatever.  We’ll see how it goes.

Things I have to do this weekend:

Buy a coupon organizer at Target?  Wally World?
Call Verizon for a replacement phone - I give up on my phone, replacing it and transferring shit is too annoying
Check e-mail
Complete CEUs
Complete trainings
Do laundry
Donate clothes to Good Will
Download the free songs on iTunes from Starbucks
E-mail the garbage company about getting smaller containers
Find a dress for my brother’s wedding - this is going to take a lot of time to find…
Find shoes to go with the dress for my brother’s wedding - same as above
Go running in the mornings
Go to Costco to buy the goat cheese w/blueberries
Go to the post office to mail KAL my receipt to claim mileage - their online help is busted
Meet up w/Pharmer?
Organize receipts
Pay malpractice insurance
Reorganize closet
Scrub my bathroom toilet and bathtub
Thread eyebrows
Update Page Once
Update resumes
Vacuum

I like trying new things.  I’m a total chump though when it comes to cute designs and false advertisement.

NeuroAqua - my coworkers tell me that it looks like a baby bottle.  Maybe I’m channeling my infant days or something but I’m digging the design.

Their website claims that “NeuroAqua is refreshing spring water sourced from the Californian Adobe Springs – thought by many to be the world’s purest source of water. What makes this water different than others on the market is its naturally high levels of magnesium and calcium. Magnesium serves as a critical electrolyte in the human body, helping to maintain bone health, hydration and nerve function. Recently, the World Health Organization recommended fortifying drinking water with magnesium due to its importance in human health. These naturally occurring minerals give NeuroAqua a high alkaline level and a higher pH level. This counters the acidity that food leaves in our bodies, and balances it out. NeuroAqua is refreshingly crisp and smooth, providing instant hydration and refreshment throughout the day.”

To be honest, I didn’t feel anything special.  It was like drinking any other bottled water.  I was expecting…oh I don’t know…something out of the ordinary I suppose.

They have other drinks as well:

Carbonated drinks:

“NeuroBliss is a delicious drink designed to promote happiness and eliminate stress without affecting your energy levels. The combination of blissful ingredients in this product is distinctly unique from any other product on the market. L-Theanine, an amino acid found in green tea which has been clinically proven to help reduce stress, works by altering brain waves, shifting them from the beta spectrum to the alpha spectrum — where a person is focused and alert, but calm. Another key ingredient is the cognitive booster Acetyl-L-Carnitine, a highly functional amino acid. 5-HTP and the botanical ingredient chamomile promote feelings of calm and relaxed attentiveness. NeuroBliss is perfect for anyone wishing to reduce anxiety caused by every day stressors. NeuroBliss can be consumed multiple times per day and works immediately.”

“NeuroGasm is a delicious drink designed to promote better sexual health. Two powerful amino acids, L-Arginine and L-Citrulline play a role in the production of a compound called nitric oxide. Nitric Oxide helps regulate blood flow through arteries that supply nutrients to muscles, brain, lungs and other organs. Nitric Oxide may also stimulate a sexual response through the same physiological process. Other ingredients include green tea and L-Theanine, which combine to promote energy levels without nervous anxiety or tension. One remains energetic and focused without feeling hyper or anxious. A full range of B-vitamins and other key amino acids, make the perfect combination for the “right” kind of energy when you need it most.”

“NeuroSonic is a delicious drink designed to increase high level mental functioning: better memory, alertness and concentration. Superior to other energy drinks, NeuroSonic was formulated to help meet the demands of today’s high stress living, where it’s vital for the brain to function at top form. The unique combination of plant extracts, amino acids and unique dietary ingredients provide fuel for the brain to remain focused and alert over long periods of time. The ingredient Alpha GPC provides raw materials to the brain to help it function better, faster. The amino acids, including acetyl l-carnitine and l-phenyalanine also support mental function. Vitamins Inositol, B-6, B-12 and other B-vitamins help support the nervous system. Rounding out the formula is the ingredient resveratrol, an antioxidant found in red wine, which protects the brain and may have anti-aging benefits. Together, these ingredients provide the foundation for enhanced brain function.”

Non-carbonated drinks:

“NeuroSleep is a delicious drink with a unique formula designed to promote restful sleep and improve overall sleep quality. Clinically proven to be effective, the combination of melatonin and magnesium found in NeuroSleep work together to aid in healthy sleep quality and normalize the circadian rhythm, especially after travel over 3 or more time zones. Additionally, NeuroSleep provides 5-HTP, an ingredient structurally similar to the amino acid tryptophan, but more effective. Magnesium is included at 300 mg per bottle, providing a significant amount of this key electrolyte to help you sleep better and prevent cramping while asleep. NeuroSleep is the optimal bedtime drink, providing quality rest which helps you function at your best.”

Call me crazy…but I don’t think I’d want my drink to have melatonin in it.  Hormones shouldn’t be in drinks.  Period.  What if a person is hella thirsty and ingest excessive amounts of this?  I’m just sayin’…

“NeuroSport is a delicious drink designed to replenish the body during and after exercise with the unparalleled combination of 12 minerals and 5 electrolytes. The five key electrolytes of potassium, sodium, magnesium, calcium, and chloride are in each bottle. Most sports drinks contain only 2 — sodium and potassium – not enough to keep the body properly hydrated. It’s scientifically proven that magnesium, calcium, and chloride significantly contribute to effective rehydration during exercise. NeuroSport also has good-for-you minerals such as chromium, copper, manganese, molybdenum and selenium, which are depleted during rigorous workouts. Quickly restoring these minerals helps improve endurance and increase fitness levels, making NeuroSport the sports drink of the next generation.”

“NeuroTrim is a delicious drink designed to promote weight loss. It could well be the most effective weight management tool on the market. The key ingredient, LuraLean, is a unique, proprietary, 300-year old Japanese fiber derived from the konjac root and activated upon consumption. The konjac fiber temporarily swells to more than 200 times its actual size upon consumption, sending signals to the brain that it is satisfied. LuraLean also absorbs fats and oils, before they’re absorbed by the body, and promotes healthy regularity and improved digestive health. Over 20 clinical trials demonstrated the safety and effectiveness of this ingredient for weight loss. “One gram” of this special fiber (contained in each bottle) is the equivalent of consuming 20 grams of regular fiber. The ingredient L-Carnitine aids in burning fat, which also promotes weight loss and helps achieve a leaner you.”

This one…I might be willing to try.  I need fiber.  Badly.

Anyone else try any of these Neuro drinks?

Holy balls, I didn’t get home until 2020.  Ugh.  After work, I had a dinner meeting that was catered.  Sometimes, I feel like I’m in some crazy ass fraternity and I’m watching doctors having a pissing match, to see who can piss the furthest.  I don’t know if it’s because they’re egomaniacs or what, but they seem to want to one up the other.

Crab, shrimp, lobster cake with ancho aioli + mango salsa.  House salad.  Chicken breast with mashed potatoes + gravy and asparagus.  Had to drink a cup of coffee to make sure that the crème brulée didn’t put me out of commission during my drive.  It was successful but now I’m wide fucking awake…hyper as hell.

For all the inner SCII nerds (myself included, thanks Big Bang for the link):

Currently listening to: Sugar We’re Going Down - Fall Out Boy

In the midst of co-writing a rant with Mr_Jin.  Fantastical.

Big Bang called me last night.  My phone is totally jacked up, he could barely hear me until I put on my ear piece.  How retarded is that…having to put on an ear piece while indoors, nevertheless my own home.  I told him about all the things that I hated that people do.  He told me that I was an angry person.  I replied, “It’s gotten better over the years.”

I’ve been falling asleep later and later almost every day.  I was too busy fucking around with my iPod.  God help me when I get an iPhone4.  But I also was thinking about the possible job offer that was presented to me.

Surprisingly, my phone rang this morning.  It was Big Bang.  Funny, he’s never called me in the morning on a weekday.  I was caught off guard but still happy.

Sometimes I wonder about myself.  I tell myself to stop being so silly.  I feel like a chick in high school with this relationship.  It’s almost like a damn roller coaster ride.  The highs and lows. We’re absurd and we don’t act our age, yet I’m okay with that.  I know I’ve grown attached and I find that problematic in case…in the event that this relationship is no longer viable.  It’s rather frightening for me to be this vulnerable.  I completely put myself out there for something that isn’t entirely guaranteed.

Instant coffee is a drag.  I wish I had a Keurig so I can make single cups in the morning.  I leave the house too late to get coffee at the gas station or coffee shops.  Maybe tomorrow I’ll make a conscious effort to get a huge ass mug fulla coffee in the morning.  Let’s see how ambitious I get.

I crack myself up while I’m driving alone.  I’m singing songs at the top of my lungs.  My favorite one to sing these days is “So Hot” by Wonder Girls.  I can’t stand Wonder Girls, yet here I am giggling like a dumb shit singing to the most ridiculous lyrics ever.

“I’m so hot 난 너무 예뻐요
I’m so fine 난 너무 매력있어
I’m so cool 난 너무 멋져
I’m so so so hot hot”

I got to work and I was suddenly bombarded by my Latin coworkers about the new wannabee Corean version of Jersey Shores.  First of all, I’ve never seen an episode of Jersey Shores but I can imagine what it’s like.  They asked me if the clips found on YouTube are realistic to what Corean night life is like in K-Town.  Shit, I told them that Tyrese should just follow around my brother and I + friends when we go to K-Hole.  Hell, Tyrese could follow around any large group of Coreans who frequent the area often enough to get a better show.  The show looks like a major train wreck, but that’s how Coreans do it, right?

- becoming belligerent while on drugs or drinking copious amounts of liquor
- being pretentious and ordering top shelf liquor
- drinking until someone either gets hurt or throws up
- dropping a minimum of $1,000 a night
- eating like it’s your last meal
- getting arrested/getting a DUI
- getting kicked out of the club/bar
- going to Hodori or next door for shitty ass Corean food, only because they’re open 24/7
- going to room salons for more liquor
- going to 2,3, 4 cha (most likely to involve a NRB (NoRae Bang))
- going to the strip clubs
- laughing at the posers who drive a luxury car (5 series or better) and finding out that they live in a bachelor (smaller than a studio) and eat
- nursing a hangover eating pho or 꼬리곰탕 (ggori gomtang (oxtail soup))
- passing out at the 찜질방 (jjim jirl bang (Corean sauna)) or at random ass places
- smoking like a motherfucker
- starting a fight at a club/bar
- talking in Corean (loudly), heavily cussing
- throwing random shit across the room

I guess the cat’s out of the bag now.  My Latino coworkers had stereotyped Coreans as intellectuals and scholars.  Yeah.  They were sorely mistaken.

Also found out that shit’s going to hit the fan within the next couple of days at work.  Luckily, I am not involved.  An issue that even HR couldn’t handle.

Went back and forth with Bird Girl via e-mails.  I miss her lots.  She wanted to know when I was going to go to Boston.  I know.  Totally.

I’ve been eating up a storm these days.  It’s either feast or famine with me.

I e-mailed the person I was referred to by my former boss.  Turns out it’s a doctor I used to work with.  I found out more information about the job…and then I turned it down.  I’m definitely qualified but to be on call 24/7 is not anything that I’m seeking and the commute would be even longer than what I’m doing now.  Plus it wasn’t a field that I’m particularly interested in working in at this time.  I was rather diplomatic about my response because I didn’t want to burn any bridges because who knows, maybe we’ll cross paths again later on.

I sent Big Bang a Googie e-vite for Thanksgiving.  Haha.  Who does that? He then replied, “maybe”.  Hmph.

She’s trying to reel me in again.  She knows that I won’t answer her calls (not that it matters because my phone is fucked up) but now she’s sending me texts (which also I only get half of the time anyway) about a position that’s available.  It would be a position (CNO) that I’ve been thinking of getting later on in my career because I don’t think that I have enough experience for it.  And now she’s just dangling it in front of my face…fuck.

“A friend to all is a friend to none.”

“A true friend is one soul in two bodies.”

“All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsions, habit, reason, passion, desire.”

“No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness.”

“The whole is more than the sum of its parts.“

Currently watching: Law & Order: Criminal Intent

Woke up at 0600. Haven’t been sleeping much lately.

Developed two new zits.

Talked to Big Bang and invited him over for Thanksgiving.  I know it’s awhile away but I’ve been having to take a lot of time off from work and I have to spread it out.  Weddings, follow-up appointments, family, conferences, and other pertinent appointments.

+ of him coming in November:
allows me the time to make it a memorable time in Southern California
he can meet my family, give him a chance to find a better job from now till then plus most companies don’t usually hire during the holidays anyway
spending holidays together

- of him coming in November:
airfare prices are generally more expensive during the holidays
how to introduce him to my parents…as a boyfriend or as a friend?
long gap from now till Thanksgiving, would like to make it sooner in case things don’t work out…we can move on with our lives
weather may cause delays flying out/to D.C.

Mom made me watch a Onuri church on television.

Ate at a local joint that serves up Southern food Louisiana style.  This place beats Roscoe’s hands down.  Homemade waffles and perfectly seasoned fried chicken.  Yeah.  Yum.

Took my brother to Costco’s for a shopping spree.  He’s got a new place, signed the lease, moving in next weekend.  He’s the kinda guy that likes to go to Costco once a year and so he likes to buy a whole buncha shit in bulk.

I bought a new bathroom rug, the old one was getting ratty.  Also bought toilet bowl cleaner.  They had samples of blueberry goat cheese.  Gah, I die…*Rachel Zoe style*

Went to the Verizon store.  The customer service rep guy told me that I could call this 1800 # and tell them that I lost my phone and they’d send me a new one.  But that means that they would shut down my current phone (which I clearly have not lost).  Fuck. I’ll be texting via my iPod until I figure out what I’m going to do.  I have seven months left on my contract.  When the time is up, I’ll be thinking hard about getting the iPhone4, hopefully they’ll fix all the bugs out by then.

My brother gave me some of the movies off his external hard drive.

I helped him assemble the guest bed downstairs. It’s kinda funny, we complement one another.  Whatever I suck at doing, he is extremely good at and vice versa.

Watched “Drop Dead Diva”.

Fuck.  My cell phone is fucked up.  Motherabitch.  Sorry if anyone called/texted.  Gotta go to Verizon tomorrow.

Currently listening to: Beautiful Monster - Ne-Yo

I’m sweating my metaphorically speaking balls off.  I walked outside and it was scorching hot…like 101 motherfucking degrees hot.  I guess I should be glad that it’s dry heat…

Went to Zumba this morning and I wanted to die.  They had no AC and the heat was unbearable.  Fuck.

I was telling my coworker that the heat makes me wanna do hoodrat things…what?  I haven’t decided yet…

Went to Macy’s…cause they were having a sale.   Bought three tops that I really didn’t need.  I still have to look for a shrug type thing for my brother’s wedding/rehearsal dinner or buy new dresses. And maybe new shoes.

My middle-aged white neighbors are having a loud ass party and dancing to Lionel Richie and Justin Bieber songs.

I changed my plan on Verizon and saved myself an extra $30 a month.

Big Bang says that this is my new avatar.  Yeah.  I’ll show him…

3D4Medical
ACP DDM
Alarm Clock
Amazon
Angry Birds
Angry Birds Lite
AroundMe
Army Wars
Baby Scratch
Betty Crocker Cookbook
Bills
BofA
Brain Tuner
Bubbles Lab
Bump
Calif Traffic
CardKing
CloseCall
CPR Hands Only
Dictionary
Drug Guide
Earthquakes
Eclipse
Epocrates
Essentials
Evernote
Facebook
Farm Story
Flight Control
Flood-it! 2
Fluent News
FS5 Hockey
Funny Cats
Gengo Lite
GoodGuide
Google
Google Earth
Grocery IQ
Groupon
HelloTXT
Human Facts
Huffington Post
iCanHasLOL
iHandy Level
iKorail
IMDb
Iron Man Lite
iTour Seoul
Kayak
Korea
Korean
Korean Lite
KorSubway
Lexi-Comp Individual
Lingopal Lite
MapQuest
MedCalc
Medical Info
Medscape
Meebo
Mega Jump
MetalWars
MetroSeoul
NPR News
NY Times
OpenTable
Pac-Man
Panda Mania
Pandora
Paw Card
Pocket Pond
R.O.D. 32
R. Racing GTI
SalePrice
Score Center
Seafood Watch
Seoul Bus
SeoulMetro
SeoulMetro Tour
Skype
Spanish LE
Spawn Glow
Starbucks
Starbucks Mobile Card
Strike Knight
Sushipedia
Tap Tap Revenge 3
Tap Tap Revenge 3 Boost
TextNow Free
The Simpsons
The Weather Channel
Thrillist
TMZ
Today Show
Translator
Traffic Rush
Travel Korea Seoul
Twitter
Vampires
WebMD
Wi-Fi Finder
Wi-Fi Plus
Wikipedia
Woman’s Day Cooking Assistant
WordPower Lite
Yelp
YTN

What apps do you have?

The day started with a cup of coffee.  I felt like a fucking junkie, hands trembled as I slowly drew the cup to my mouth.  Coffee had never tasted so good.  The moment it went down my throat, I felt the caffeine going through my veins.  It’s as if my brain had been jump-started. A&OX4 within an instant.  The only thing that could have made that moment even better, would have been a nice moist cupcake with the cup of java.  I’m just sayin’.  Yeah, I’m the worst, I’m totally not compliant at all.

The minute I stepped into work, it was utter chaos.  Not enough staff, too many patients.  Quickly assessing and rapidly triaging patients.  Oh…and what’s this?  A Fellow doesn’t show up to work?  Yes…e-mails and pages have been quickly sent out to the director.

The Fellow that I had an issue with has been suspended.  The other Fellows and residents thanked me for pushing the issue.  They said that they were dreading coming to work because of her.  You’re welcome.

Another Fellow returned from Maui and brought back goodies for me.  That was nice of her.

I’ve got about four piles of paperwork left by the end of the day.  It’s almost like a dick tease.  Just when I think I’ve finished…more shit happens.

My mom tortured me by making me watch three hours of “Bethenny Getting Married”.  Three motherfucking hours.  I didn’t even know who this woman was prior to watching this show.  She’s a chef?  Jesus…but then again she dropped to a size 4 three weeks after giving birth.  Watching her is like watching bipolar pregnant patients who have a sense of entitlement.  What a fucking spazz.  My mom was very interested in the wedding part.  For me, it was like watching a train wreck, what the shit is this?

I can’t stop listening to “Letra de Cancion 1977″ from Anita Tijoux.  It’s free on iTunes.  She’s half Chilean and half French.  She raps in this song in Spanish.  Holy balls does she speak fast.  *rolls my RRR’s*  I had my Latina friends listening to it but they only caught 70% of what she was rapping.  Me?  Probably about 35%.  But when I looked up the lyrics online, I was able to translate most of it.

“Mil novecientos setenta y…
Nací un día de Junio del año 77,
planeta mercurio y el año de la serpiente,
signo patente tatuado y en mi frente
que en el vientre de mi madre marcaba el paso siguiente.
Nacer, llorar, sin anestesia en la camilla,
mi padre solo dijo es Ana María,
si sería el primer llanto que me provaría,
quemando las heridas y dandome la batería.
Solía ser entonces como un libro abierto,
pero leí la letra pequeña del texto,
como un arquitecto construyendo cada efecto,
correcto, incorrecto, se aprende todo al respecto.”

Had to call the cops today.  I wasn’t sure if the patient was armed or not…that’s not my job to check either.

Went to get my car washed.  I asked for the “new car” scent.  It’s like being in a new car all over again.

I am thoroughly addicted to my iPod Touch.  I’ve influenced my coworkers and now we’ve formed an idiotic iPhone/Pod group.  We introduce new apps to one another and compete in the games.  I still can’t beat Angry Birds worth shit though.

An attorney representing my former coworkers at the previous hospital I worked for, sent me a letter requesting to speak to me about my experience with that hospital.  If I told him about my time there, he’d probably want to retain me.  But for the mean time, I will just shut my fucking mouth until they slap a subpoena on me.

Speaking of subpoenas, I might get one at my current job because of the bullshit that’s been going on.    Oh brother.

My family’s weird.  Without a doubt.

My brother sends me a Google calendar invite whenever he comes home or when he wants to schedule appointments with me.

My brother licks my cat’s treats before giving it to my cat.  His reasoning, “She has to know where it comes from.”

My mom talks to my cat, as if it were a child.

I like calling Big Bang when it’s blatantly obvious that he’s sleeping.  He’ll text me that he’s going to bed.  20 minutes later, I will call him.

When I get home from work, I need at least an hour of television, preferably Law & Order (SVU, original, Criminal Intent), before I feel like talking to anyone.  If there are back-to-back shows, I act is though I’ve won the lottery.  I am easily entertained.

Currently listening to: Just Dance - Lady Gaga

Interviewed a new potential employee to work per diem today.  She seems to be alright…alright meaning I can mold her into my liking.

So…Big Bang said he wanted to come visit SoCal.  This ought to be fun.  *grin*

Coffee lack of coffee has been kicking my ass.  I don’t know how much longer I can go without…I feel like a fucking addict, looking for my next fix.

I tore my mom a new one.  Tired of her attitude.  There were tear works and all.

I ate a small bowl of vanilla ice cream for dinner.

I’m addicted to my iPod.  Is it necessary to have 100+ apps?  Yes…yes it is.

“Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars,
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now.”

Let’s pretend that my mom didn’t manipulate me on the daily.
Pretend that I’m not a pawn in her sick game, I’m not a baby.
She needs to stop butting into my business about who I date.
Don’t ask about my religion and fate.
Cuz asking me every day, “When are you going to get married?”
Ain’t going to change shit, just be glad that I’m getting paid.
My childhood was fucked up, I hated my life.
All she ever did was cluck and criticize me, it was like stabbing me with a serrated knife.
It wasn’t ever enough for her, top grades, instruments, and sports.
So I decided to go out and do hoodrat things with my cohorts.
Ended up going to a concentration camp in the Motherland.
Backhand, crash-land, gangland, I was falling into quicksand.
Nothing was ever good enough, I had to tune her out, otherwise I’d go crazy.
Let’s pretend that it goes in through one ear and out the other, pretty soon, it doesn’t even faze me.
Pretend that I live alone in this huge house.
Everything’s quiet like a motherfucking mouse.
Everything is in limbo, uncertainty hovers over me like a black cloud.
I look like I got run over by a MACK truck, fuck it, I got plowed.
I don’t want to talk about it, is it understood?
Cause if you ask, I’ll simply reply, “It’s all good.”

She pretends that…

“Airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars,
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now.
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars,
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now.”

Currently listening to: Neutron Star Collision - Muse

Breakfast consisted of a large coffee from Seattle’s Best + two Monterey Jack cheese sticks.
Lunch: Skipped.
Snack: 100 calorie Lorna Doone pack
Dinner: 20 oz of diet Snapple Peach Tea and half a serving of whole wheat noodles and meatballs.

Worked a half day today.

I had two doctor’s appointments (follow-ups) at 1430 and 1600.

I’ve still got gastritis and esophagitis and was told to d/c (discontinue) the coffee for another week.  *le sigh*  He was telling me about how my muscles had atrophied due to lack of food/water.  Body feeding off itself.  Blah blah blah.

Got my Depot injection, even though I’m not having sex.  The Medical Assistant wasn’t wearing gloves.  This was a different person than last time.  Disgusting.

Borderline hypertension (but really, that’s from the coffee I ingested earlier): 140/91 and 142/93.

When I got home, my mom had some things to tell me.  I didn’t like hearing it…and then all the sudden I felt like everything was closing in on me.  Time is no longer my friend.  When she finished telling me what she had to say, I sat there stunned because I couldn’t believe it was happening all over again.  I continued sitting there in a daze with a blank stare.  Then I slowly got up and went upstairs ignoring her and the rest of the world.

I’m giving a shout out to a personal friend of mine, Jason.  I’ve known him for about 3 - 4 years now.

He has a photography business and has done some amazing shoots, ranging from baby pictures, engagements, weddings, and portfolios.

To view his portfolio, please go to www.JasonHongPhotography.com.

If you want professional photos done, give him a call or e-mail.

Aijalon Mahli Gomes, 30, originally from Boston, was arrested for crossing China’s border and entering N. Corea in January. He has been sentenced to eight years of hard labor in April and fined $700,000. He was convicted of crossing the border illegally and of an unspecified “hostile act”.

He has recently made a suicide attempt.

Well shit.  I would too if I was in a concentration camp in N. Corea.

But the question remains…why’d he fucking go there?  Is he fucking mental?  Didn’t he learn from others who have been held captive before him?  Laura Ling or Euna Lee?  Ring a bell?

He was an English teacher in S. Corea, he had a sweet gig there.  Why waste it all away?  Going to N. Corea is no fucking joke.  Shieet.  Although I do support Justin Bieber going there for a concert.  Hah!

He’s now just a pawn in N. Corea’s scheme of wheeling and dealing. Good luck, brah.

Currently listening to: Runaway - Real McCoy

Everyone’s trying to feed me…”eat some of this, eat this”.  I felt like I was well on my way to becoming a product of foie gras.

Saturday

My morning started early enough…I had business to attend to.  *yawn*  Clearly, I was not awake yet.

I’m back on the crack (aka coffee), but I’m only allowing myself one cup a day.  Anything more gives me gut rot.  While I was driving around in the middle of nowhere, I stopped by this cute little drive-thru coffee joint and ordered a soy latte.  It was fairly decent and inexpensive.  I’d go there again for sure.

We had our team meeting at IHop.  Not a fan of this place and since I was full from my latte, I skipped the food there, except when I was forced to eat one of the CinniMinions.  I hate to admit it but it was nice and warm and felt good in my belly.

We finished our meeting in less than two hours.  Brainstormed, discussed proposals, and tasks.  Overall, we accomplished a lot. I think this is a good distraction for me, being busy with multiple projects, takes my mind off things.

After the meeting, I was bored and didn’t want to go home.  I decided to see what was going on at JapanLA.  Traffic was hellacious.  It took me forever to get there.  Stupid ass 5 freeway is always cockblocking me.

I knew that they were having a sale there and they were having the WorldFare BUStaurant sitting outside their store. I had heard of the BUStaurant (double decker bus), the chef was a sous chef for Gordon Ramsay and anyone who can stand to be with him for two seasons ought to be applauded. But I was sorely disappointed when I got there, because Chef Andi wasn’t there.  She had her minions doing all the work inside.  The guy taking my order took forever calculating my total.  I did it in my head within seconds while he was still figuring out the prices and inputting it in the calculator.

They had the “bunny” entrees on display and it grossed me out.  It’s a small bread bowl hallowed out and stuffed with various types of meats.

I ordered the strawberry + basil lemonade.  I got it because it sounded interesting.  The basil was overpowering, I couldn’t finish the drink.  Next time, I’ll order the lychee mint homemade drink.

The truffle mac & cheese balls.  Three balls for $2.75.  They were small but that’s alright cause I wasn’t that hungry.

This was fucking good.  Definitely hit the spot.  I fucking love truffle mac & cheese.

At JapanLA, I bought a few items.  Every time I go into this store, I feel like I’ve digressed and I’m 10 years-old again.  I’m buying all the shit that my parents never would buy me when I was a pre-teen.  They were focused on academics and sports, not…well not fun.

Bought two stuffed cats (I liked how they had their backs arched). I’ve named them “Pinkie” and “Charcoal”.  Not very original, I know.  My cat approves of them.

She also likes my Tokidoki t-shirt that I got for 50% off.  Good deal.

I bought my cousin’s kid a Hello Kitty backpack.  When I was finished, I called up my cousin to see what she was doing.  Luckily, she wasn’t doing shit.  I schlepped over to her apartment.  While on the way, I called my mom to tell her that I was out.  She excitedly asked me if I was going out on a date.  I told her “NO” and that I was going over to our relative’s house.

The place looked like a tornado hit it.  So damn messy.  My cousin looked exhausted.

I gave Euni her backpack, she was excited.  She started to stuff all her animals into the backpack.  She wanted to rip the Hello Kitty off the backpack but I told her not to.  I think she’s grown considerably comfortable with me now.  She openly whines, complains, and shrieks in front of me.  It was non-stop.  If I ever pulled that sort of mess on my parents when I was younger, my parents would have bitch slapped me into the next millennium.  I sat there and watched my cousin continue to spoil her only child.  At first, I was agitated at her parenting style but who am I to judge?  I don’t have a kid so what do I know about child rearing?

None of us had eaten lunch so I took them to The French Crepe Co.

I ordered the Crepe Phillipe - spinach and mushroom in Mornay sauce.  It sounded better than it looked.  I ate a few bites and had it boxed up.

It came with a salad. It was gross too.

Since Euni couldn’t finish her La Versailles crepe - fresh strawberries and powdered sugar, my cousin pushed me into eating some of it.  The kid loves sugar and whipped cream. She started bellyaching whenever she ran out of whipped cream and her mom would have to go and fetch her more.

It was a rip off, the total came to $33.44 (one Phillipe, one La Versailles, one L’Opera, and two bottled waters).   At least they enjoyed their food.

We walked around a bit at The Grove.  I needed a metallic blue top for my brother’s wedding but I couldn’t find one.  It started to rain and we headed back to her place.

We talked about relatives back in the Motherland.  She told me that once her husband finishes grad school and secures a job, that they would try to have another child.  She asked me how I felt about my brother getting married before me.  I told her it was just as well since I’m nowhere near getting married and that I’m happy that someone loves his unconventional ass.

While I was heading back home, JayJay called me to see what I was up to and if I ate dinner.  I told him that I hadn’t and that we should meet up in Rowland Heights.  I got disoriented when I got to Rowland Heights.  I meant to go into Evergreen but wound up at SK.  When I walked into SK, random women were speaking to me in Mandarin.  I thought to myself, “What the fuck?  What happened to all the Coreans?”  Turns out that I went to the wrong grocery store, obviously I was in a Chinese store.  I had to go down further on Colima to hit Evergreen.  For fucks sakes.

JayJay picked me up in the parking lot and we had dinner at FuRaiBo. I still wasn’t hungry, I ended up watching JayJay eat for most of the time.  He told me about his work and showed me the latest pics that he’s taken.

Cream cheese wontons.  I had two of these.

Pork cutlet.  Had one piece.

Chicken yakitori.  Had 1/2 of a stick.
Fried rice with Portuguese sausages and kimchi.  Had a spoonful.

Tori-Karaage.  This was yum.  Had a few pieces of this as well.

JayJay kept putting more and more food into my little plate.  I told him I couldn’t eat anymore but he didn’t care.

While sitting at the restaurants, we were both thoroughly disgusted at the lack of discipline the children at the table over to us were given.  The kids were running around and knocking things over.  So annoying.

Jayjay showed me where they filmed parts of “Back to the Future”, when Doc was testing the DeLorean at the Puente Hills Mall parking lot.

We were on our way to get shaved snow, when a car nearly collided into us.  Jayjay honked his horn at the car.  The car then got behind us and started high beaming and tailgating us.  Jayjay stopped the car in the middle of the road, flew out of the car and went over to the car behind us.  He was yelling at the asshole for being a little bitch.  I thought to myself, well, if the other driver of the car gets out of the car, it was on like Donkey Kong.  I haven’t been in a fight for awhile.  I couldn’t find my flashlight fast enough.  The other driver was crying like a little bitch about how he had his family in the car with him.  Yeah.  If you’re that concerned about your passengers, you wouldn’t try to crash into another car and then tailgate them.  *rolls eyes*

Then we went into a parking lot to park the car but another car was backing out of its stall and nearly hit us.  This was the second time…the fuck?  Again, JayJay honked his horn at them.  As we were at a standstill, waiting for a parking spot, the car that almost backed into us pulled up next to us and stared us down.  The vatos had this look like, “If the girl wasn’t with you, it’d go down.”  I was rummaging in my purse, attempting to locate my miniature flashlight, but to no avail.  Jayjay was screaming at them, “Fucking crazy!” and then they drove away.

Every time I’m in SGV, I fear for my life.  People drive so retarded here.  Rowland Heights/Diamond Bar/Hacienda Heights is just as bad as Alhambra/San Gabriel, Monterey Park.

The shaved snow place ran out of ice.  WTF.

We went to Guppy Tea House (Taiwanese) for shaved ice.  A substitute for the shaved snow and 팥빙수 (Patbingsu), Corean red bean shaved ice.

We ordered the small shaved ice mixed fruit with red bean.  A SMALL, mind you.  And out came this fucking beast.  Heavily saturated with condensed milk and loads of fruits.

Again, JayJay kept spooning more and more food into my bowl.  By this time, I was just eating the ice because I was so fucking full.  If I ate anymore, I would have fucking thrown up.  He ended up taking most of it home with him.  I don’t know how it’ll be the next day…

I gave him 112, 000 Wons to convert for me.  I was still holding onto the cash I had when I was in the Motherland.  I had my own fantasy reasons for keeping it…until now.  His mom was going to Corea so I took advantage of the situation.

We ended up back to my car without any incidents.  I was tired and it was late.  I had a full day.  I drove home jamming to Eminem.  By the time I reached my house, I was half-asleep.  I crawled into bed and didn’t want to be bothered with the world.

I spent five hours driving today.

Sunday

I woke up at 0630 and saw that Big Bang had texted me the night before.  I replied to his text.  He asked me about my day.  I gave him a brief run down of the events that occurred.  He seemed interested in my new project.

We made a friendly World Cup bet.  I told him that Spain was going to win. He believed that the Dutch would prevail.  If Spain wins, he would have to do a Twilight Night with me.  This entails watching all four movies, back-to-back-to-back-to-back (when Breaking Dawn DVD is released).  If the Dutch win, he wanted me to cook anything he wanted for him in a specific outfit. Needless to say, España won.  But honestly, was there any doubt that they wouldn’t win?

I fell back asleep again and didn’t get out of bed until 1400.  I was in a lazy mood.  I didn’t feel like doing jack shit.  The only reason I got out of bed was because I had to take a dump.  If it weren’t for that, I would still be in bed.

I went to get a cup of corn and chili bisque.  Ugh.  Too much acid.  I ate half of it and put the rest in the fridge.

My mom came home from church and told me that next week, I was going to church with her.  I told her that I wasn’t going to go.  I know what she’s going to do…pimp me out again, and I don’t want to be involved with that bullshit.

Bad

Another coworker was laid off at his other job.  He went to work and they up and told him that he was laid off.  No warning or anything.  I don’t have any full-time positions available for him either (he’s part-time).  It’s sad because he’s got six kids and a wife who has several medical issues. I know he’ll find a job soon, it’s just the waiting part that sucks ass.

I’ve seemed to have lost my appetite these days.

Confused

It’s been 15 days since Big Bang decided that he was going to mull over our relationship.

Why can’t I win Angry Birds?

Why is the world obsessed with LeBron and Lindsay Lohan?  What have they done for me lately?

Good

My coworker was nominated for employee of the year.  I hope she wins, she definitely deserves it.  Plus it’d be nice to have someone in our department win…we never win…just get nominations.

Interested

I haven’t done any realty projects since getting my Transaction Coordinator certificate.  I’m working with a broker, but right now everything is pretty stagnant.  We’re having a team meeting tomorrow morning.

I was approached to assist with another business project involving food.  We’ll see how it goes…

Tired

After Zumba today, I was tired.  Usually, exercising gives me a burst of energy but I’m feeling like a damn sloth.  But then again, maybe it’s because I didn’t eat dinner.

Since I’m not answering her calls, she’s trying to call me from other phone numbers.  Unfortunately, that idea doesn’t work because if I don’t have the phone number in my contact list, I refuse to pick up.  It can go to voicemail.  She’s getting desperate.  I can smell it.  It brings me such delight knowing that she’s squirming. Yeah…it’s cruel but I didn’t initiate this.

I had my annual evaluation.  Overall, everything was fine.  I was given a whopping 50 cent raise. I guess I shouldn’t sound so bitter since there are others who didn’t get a raise and worked extremely hard too.

Had a patient who tried to jam a pencil through the roof of his mouth.  Then he busted his foot and a flap of skin was hanging off his toe.  The dirty bloody flap fell onto the ground and when I went to pick it up, it slipped out of my gloves and it almost landed on my coworker.  The expression on her face was priceless.

I gave my extra iPod Touch (3rd generation) to a coworker, she’s been wanting one for awhile but couldn’t afford it (single mom + three kids (one kid is autistic)).  I’m too lazy to send it back and I really don’t need to have two of them.

Beta SC II is back again.  Excellent.

Currently listening to: Half of My Heart - John Mayer feat. Taylor Swift
I think John Mayer is one ugly fuck but he sure can sing.  *le sigh*  This is currently my favorite song.

I’ve moved most of my apps into folders now (thanks to the new update).  Now I have even more room to get more useless apps.  I am an app whore…but only the free ones (cept Angry Birds (not the lite version)).

Movies downloaded: New Moon (even though I have the DVD)
TV Shows: America - The Story of Us, Anytime Yoga, Fit and Fabulous, I Kissed a Vampire, Law & Order, V
Podcasts: Dear John - Military in Movies - Dear John’s Military Advisors, Eclipse - TV Spot “Legend”

I didn’t sleep well last night.  Mostly because I was thinking of how my former boss was trying to steal staff from right under my nose.  It’d be alright if she took the ones that sucked but she was going for the jugular, the ones who have been with me for years and do excellent work.  Vengeance shall be mine.

I received a call to my direct line.  No one calls my direct line unless it’s critical.  My own mother doesn’t have the direct phone number.  If she wants to talk to me, she can either call my cell phone or call the main number like everyone else.  Anyway, I didn’t recognize the person’s voice on the other line, so I put the person on hold.  I called the HUC (Health Unit Coordinator) to bitch her out about transferring a call without getting my approval beforehand.  Yeah, call me an ass because it turned out that it was a new HUC wanting to ask me an important question about a patient.  Oops.

I’ve also been tutoring a student pro bono.  She’s been put on contract with her school because she failed a couple of her tests.  After kicking her ass for a few weeks, she’s been getting nothing but A’s.

There was an earthquake in SoCal.  5.4.  That’s a fairly big one.  Too bad I didn’t feel it.  I was sitting on the pot in the bathroom.  When I walked out of there, my coworkers were like, “OMG did you feel that?”  I shrugged and said, “What happened?”

I got stuck going home due to a MVA (Motor Vehicle Accident).  As I approached the scene, firefighters and paramedics were already there.  I don’t know if the person survived the accident, it was looking pretty bleak.  The crushed car seriously looked like a crumpled piece of paper.  This delayed my commute by an hour…

How am I supposed to retain staff when my former boss is trying to recruit my staff (for a different hospital)?

She called me twice.  I didn’t answer her calls.

This is war…

It felt good having Monday off.  I didn’t do anything except Skype with Big Bang and watch countless episodes of Law & Order.  Break the case.

Thought about several things today:

What would I do if Big Bang decided to continue with the relationship?
What would I do if Big Bang decided to terminate the relationship?
How would I feel?
How would I react?
I tried to mentally picture the outcome…but I couldn’t.

I was going over the things that I needed to do at work, since it was a short week, I’d have to hustle this week.  I’m still making up for lost time from last week when I called in.

I thought about my long-term goals, career-wise.  I still don’t know where I want to go.

I pondered about which songs I should download so I could listen to new jams on my long ass commute.

I was also invited to my aunt’s father’s 90th birthday party.  Jeezus.  90 years-old.  I’ve seen him before and he looks fairly healthy but I’m not certain as to what his quality of life really is.  I’d like to go but they’re probably going to end up at some greasy spoon Chinese restaurant and that would not be conducive to me losing weight for my brother and cousin’s weddings.

It’s 0111, I ought to be asleep…I’ve got work and Zumba tomorrow.

Attend Burning Man
Be a contestant on Jeopardy
Be an extra in a movie
Be fluent in Corean
Be in an Eminem music video
Be romanced ad nauseum
Beat Angry Bird (not the Lite version)
Catch fireflies
Discover my life’s purpose
Dress like I’m in Harajuku
Experience deep sea fishing (with Dramamine of course)
Form a band or be a band member (anyone need a keyboardist?)
Hang a lock at Seoul Tower
Have Roey teach me how to bake
Gain enlightenment
Get kicked out of Walmart
Get married
Go Caribbean island hopping
Go on a horse drawn carriage
Go on a Twilight Tour
Go paragliding
Go scuba diving
Go to Carnival in Rio de Janeiro
Go to Machu Picchu
Grow old with someone
Have an attitude of gratitude
Laugh more, be happy
Learn about astronomy
Learn conversational French
Learn how to play chess
Meet Robert Pattinson
Own a llama or alpaca
Pet a yak
Plant a tree
Ride a gondola in Venice
Send a message in a bottle
Shop in New York
Take up ballet
Tell a judge, “You want the truth?  You can’t handle the truth!”
Visit El Prado Museum
Visit the Pyramids of Giza
Volunteer for the Red Cross
Zip line in Maui

What’s yours?